Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Plans

I've made some decisions since we've last talked. One, I realized I cannot be here in this house for that week, so I am going to Texas on the 22nd. We will stay there for the week and then return home. Because Leonard made me promise that we (I thought, at the time, it would be all of us) would go to DisneyWorld, we are going in September. Classes be damned I guess. I will just grab James' schoolwork and help him with it.

Why do I feel like I am sitting here typing an itinerary? I guess because it's a "going through the motions", waiting for the next knot to save me, week.

I am also going to sell this house and most likely move to Texas, where there are no memories, I have a few friends, and can start something new. While I don't want to I don't really have a choice. And, on the plus side, maybe one more of us will turn Texas blue. Now I feel as if I've reached the blabbling, not making much sense part of this post.

James had a nice birthday. The bike I bought him was too big and I have to return it. We went to Hu Hot for dinner and I slammed my finger in the car door but all is well. No breaks...just a big purple mess for a few days.

Nik has orientation for Wayne in a few days. She wasn't looking forward to it until she went for her math placement exam and got a taste of walking around campus. There is a still a part of me that wishes she had gone for dorm life because I think it would be good for her. Trying to jump start someone who doesn't want to be is exhausting.

15 comments:

Donna said...

Come on to Texas Sweetie!! I think a move just might be Good medicine....love you!!hughugs

Marshamlow said...

You are such an inspiration! I am also trying to talk my daughter into the dorms, hers isn't until next year so we have time. Even with a stressfree life she is resistent to leaving home and hard to inspire. Some of it is just age and fear of the unknown. Of course that is all amplified by a 1000 for you guys. I hear great things about Texas.

Sharpie said...

I think Texas might just be what you need. HUGS!

Courtney said...

I think a move would be good for you, but Texas is a lot further for me. Guess it doesn't matter. Hold on tight hon.

Jess said...

Texas sounds great. I've had a couple of good friends who've lived there and LOVED it.
Your daughter will have such a wonderful time at college, I'm sure. I was exactly the same way, dragging my feet about it all summer - NOT anticipating the change, and then once I got into it, I had such a blast.
We'll all be thinking of you these next few weeks...

Scott said...

A move to Texas sounds like a great idea. If it doesn't work out Michigan will still be there for you.

Hope you have a fun vacation, you deserve it.

J at www.jellyjules.com said...

You know, Laura, my step-mom lost her first husband very early in their marriage, when she was very young. She didn't have kids, so her situation was different than yours. She lived in Berkeley for awhile, but too many people knew her as the widow, and knew her pain, and she couldn't take that forever. She needed a break, just like you may. She ended up moving to Portland, where she has lived ever since. It was a good decision for her, and it might be the right decision for you. I always think, if something were to happen to Ted, I would leave here. Too many memories, too much pain.

I'm here for you, whatever that can mean in the bloggy world. I've been thinking of you a lot lately.

Jeanette said...

I think moving to Texas is a great idea..a new start. It can only do you good (but Michigan will miss you!)

TGLB said...

Sounds like a plan. Nik will find her way; I actually wished I'd stayed in the dorms longer, but once I had to move out for the summers and not move home, apartment life it was for me.

Jana said...

What big changes you have coming in the next few months! It sounds as though change is exactly what you need, though.

Welcome to Texas - you're going to love it here.

Ronni said...

We'll meet for lunch at Shilo's in San Antonio...

I've asked off work for That Day, and I'm going to San Antonio for the 20th. I might even stay over night, if I can get out of rehearsal on the 19th. I want to visit Wedding Island, and all the other places we used to go, and have a Guinness and Glenlivet at Dirty Nelly's...

I shall have a hotel within walking distance of the River Walk, so I can stagger home and cry.

I can't be at home, either.

Cristina Mathers said...

sounds like a great idea to move to texas. i know that the people there are lovely and that it's sometimes good to get a fresh start---not starting over, just starting again.

Nance said...

I don't know if you realize it or not, but look at you: making considered decisions, making a move, using the words "trying" and "new" together a few times...no, it isn't perky and peppy and easy, but it's happening and it's you putting one foot in front of the other towards The Next Thing. You're showing confidence and direction and even a sense of humor (although *I* think turning Texas blue is INCREDIBLY SERIOUS--LOL).

You're doing incredibly well, and I'm so glad.

Kathy said...

Ah, Laura... you are in my prayers always.

BetteJo said...

You sound sad making these decisions and taking these steps. But you ARE doing it. Difficult for sure but you are moving forward a little bit at a time. Good things.