Saturday, November 17, 2007

The Outlaw

This is a compliance quicky. I will write more about it tomorrow. I spent the majority of the evening at my brother in law's house because James wanted to play with his cousin. My sister in law recently had surgery (as in Tuesday) and I wasn't sure she wanted to be bothered by it all...but she's doing really well. It is the same, as far as James is concerned... but not the same for me. Trying to not think of one's husband is a hard thing to do when one is looking at his brother. It is good and not good all rolled up into one. It is very good to see them, and be with them. It hurts so much to see them and be with them. I love/hate hearing them talk about him. I spend most drives (and it is a rather long by my standards) home sobbing. But I can't. Not when I am babysitting his cousin's son. Good night everyone.

8 comments:

haylee said...

May peace-filled sleep envelop you.

Cristina Mathers said...

i don't know what to say to you. no words seems right.

i hope that you soon find comfort and peace. I've recently stumbled across your blog and am amazed by your candidness and your strength. you are a wonderful mom.

you're in my thoughts.

Ortizzle said...

Sleep is sometimes the best escape. I am hoping you can at least get restful sleep.

((( )))

Marsha said...

Keep putting one foot in front of the other and it will get easier.

Karen MEG said...

Glad that your sister in law's surgery went well. Hope your little guy had fun with his cousin; cousins are great especially if they're friends too.
You're doing really well Laura, just keep taking it day by day. You're awesome.

Donna said...

Unless you've been through something like this, words seem like empty excuses...SO, just know there's someone else out in blogland who cares about you. I do.

Laurie said...

Thinking about you today and wanted
to let you know I care and hope today has some joy in it for you. I'm sure the "cousins" had fun last night and hope you got some good sleep. Take care Laura.

Laurie in Ca.

Kathy said...

Dear Laura,
Thinking about you.
Peace, Kathy